Was lying in bed last night trying to fall asleep because I knew I had to get this morning for work. Yesterday had the day off so having a three day weekend and also a short week, my schedule is off and it is time to get back to it.
So there I am trying to fall asleep and it comes to me that it was Jan 3 and I had a revelation. I had not once thought about creating a resolution for new years.
Part of me felt a ton of relief that I had not even considered it and a tiny part said, well I should have at least thought about it and decided that this year again I was boycotting it.
Last year I resolved to not make any. Maybe that actually worked. I feel I am old enough to know that it isn't going to work and why can't we make these decisions any other time of the year?
I know we can and we often do. I certainly have as I have decided to be more physically active for example. But that was a decision I made months ago. I am sticking to it to pretty good. I don't beat myself up if I miss a day (I don't have a specific schedule so no worries there actually). I just decide I have the time now and I do it. I do my own thing like dance around for half an hour and I do some things I have seen in fitness shows or classes. When it was warmer, I also would go for a walk in our local park and often that included my husband.
Some might consider this next topic I decided to work on a resolution simply because I did decide I was going to work on this area beginning in Jan, however, I am not focused on day one but on the month as a whole. I want to change my attitude about it. I need to stop doing this so I can set aside some for later.
Ok, there I said it, I need to work on my spending habits. This is one of those things I have struggled with for years, so I need to realize that it isn't something I developed overnight so it is going to take me a long time to change this as well.
Although it is the first week of Jan and it is possible to call it a resolution for New Year's, I am just not going to label it as such. I am going to recognize for what it needs to be for me. I need to change my attitude about spending and saving.
Taking small steps to change my life is not about making a resolution that I will feel guilty about later when I mess up.
I am not one of these driven people that must reach a goal by a specific point in time. I am satisified with progress. I do pat myself on the back so to speak when I do what I set out to do. But I don't beat myself up either when I slide back into old habits.